Take 15

🤔 Maybe I should remain single. Why should I pursue a romantic relationship? I mean I would love to have a romantic relationship, it's all I've ever wanted, but, I think I would have more fun with a fuck buddy. Relationships are so complicated. If I get into a relationship, that means my freedom is limited. I would have to answer to someone. There's no more I, it'll be we. I need my space. Gah! But I'm alone & lonely! And I don't want to die alone! What to do? What to do? What to do?

People say relationships are hard work. I'm super lazy. I don't cook most of the time. I'm just trying to picture myself in a relationship. I don't do yard work or any type of chore. I'd rather pay someone to do them. To be honest, I don't do shit. 🤷🏽‍♀️ I work all day. I might get takeout. Go home. Eat. Do some writing. Go to sleep. Damn, I live a boring life. Ya know? In all actuality, I'd probably do more in my life if I had a significant other because I'd be sharing my life with her. I would think of adventures that we could go on. Travel. I would make sure she's happy. I would spoil the fuck out of her. I would do so much, but, I would be happy doing them. My focus would be on her. Hopefully, she would do the same.

I think it's the possible breakup that scares me & makes me not want to pursue a romantic relationship. I hate breakups. I hate rejection & abandonment.

A few people told me over the years that I would be too perfect in a relationship, because, I'm too perfect. 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣 Wtf??? Me? Perfect? 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣 What made them think I'm perfect at all? Believe me, I'm nowhere close to perfection. Why would I want drama? Who were these people with to want drama in their relationships? I want happiness. If I can't be happy, why am I with her?

🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣 Me, perfect. 🤦🏽‍♀️ I wish I was perfect for someone & vice versa. We'll see.